I'm starting to get nervous. I'm running a race (15k) three times as long as my previous races (5k) in ELEVEN DAYS! I like to pretend I'm all hardcore, but I'm not feeling very hardcore right now. Hopefully that will change soon. I think as soon as I'm finally able to freaking run eight freaking miles, I'll feel more confident.
In 88 days I'm running a half marathon, which is five more miles than eight. Crap.
I just started running again "for real" in July and I haven't given up yet (and don't plan to). I'm improving, even if it's way slower than I'd like, so I know I'm doing something right. I need to get out of my head. I often wonder if everyone started out running like this; filled with doubt and nerves.
A lot of times when I'm feeling like I just want to quit on a run, I find inspiration somehow. Most of the time it's a saying, like, "eye on the prize" or "just live through it". Yeah, it sounds really lame, but in that moment when you're feeling weak and like a better alternative might be to just lie on the side of the road and die, sometimes it doesn't take much.
I've found running to be a lot like drinking. Drinking is fun while you're doing it and the next morning, you think, "I'm never drinking again"...until the hangover wears off. A lot of times while running, I'm thinking, "I hate this. I'm never doing this again" and then as soon as I'm done and showered, I can't wait til the next time.
I hope, after the 15k, I can't wait to do another race. I think that is what will determine how I feel going into the half. At least I know I'll be running with an amazing "team"!
Are there any mantras you say to yourself to kick your own butt into gear during a run?
Did you have a hard time reaching new distance goals as a new runner?