Lately I've had some..."internal struggles". Mainly, discussing things with my brain...like affording life, if I should adopt a dog, what to have for lunch, why the sky is blue...you know, the normal things.
For the past couple of weeks I've been craving baked goods and soda; two things I don't consume on a regular basis. I try to be healthy, although I see nothing wrong with having a sweet treat every day. Life is too short to deprive yourself of that, says I. Normally I'll have some M&M's or a handful of chocolate chips; nothing crazy. Lately, however, I want a cookie the size of my head or a cake (yes, the whole thing), or a batch of cupcakes. Truth be told, I've indulged in a giant cookie a couple days of the week after lunch. But then after dinner I want another..and then for breakfast. What's wrong with me?! (No, I'm not pregnant).
My mom always told me that if I'm craving something, it means there's something in it that my body needs. I use this to my advantage pretty often. My reasoning for eating frozen yogurt or ice cream? Calcium!
This morning as I was packing up to head to work, I grabbed my salad for lunch out of the fridge and instantly realized it's not at all what I want for lunch. I had a salad yesterday and I was starving in .2 seconds. But, since I don't have much money until Friday, I reluctantly took it with me. I was also going to take a half peanut butter and jelly sandwich for the road (I went to work late today and it was my morning snack time). I opened up the cabinet and realized that we have no bread. I was seriously sad. What will I have for a snack?
On my way to work, I really really started craving a muffin. I went back-and-forth with yes, I'll stop and get one to no, I don't need it. And then you know what I realized? I'm having this crappy salad for lunch and I had oatmeal for breakfast. Hell yes, I'm getting a stinkin muffin! One of the grocery stores on my way to work has fresh-made muffins every morning. How could I resist that? Trying to decide which flavor was a struggle, but i decided on lemon poppyseed.
|You totally want one now, don't you?|
And oh man, I put that first bite in my mouth, and literally I melted. Literally. I had turn up the AC. It was the most amazing thing ever. You know what I realized? I don't feel bad about it at all. I wonder what was in that muffin that my body needed. I'm assuming it's not an entire stick of butter. That muffin was way too delicious to not be full to the brim with buttery goodness.
I wonder what kind of funny blog searches will bring up this post if I include this word: Foodgasm